Um.

So I just woke up about a half hour ago. And decided to clean my room. Well at least my closet. I just got up and started putting away my clothes. And then proceeded to spill water all over myself. Hah.

Why am I up right now? And why is no one else up?! Someone talk to me!

Well, I didn't do much tonight/this morning but I had a lovely time anyway. Had two wonderful conversations with two wonderful people and I bet they wouldn't have happened if I had gone out and gotten completely hammered. Whoop whoop!

My last entry stated that I am happy with the friends I have and tonight definitely helped to reinforce that. I'm grateful.

But anyway! Back to the point of me being awake at 6 am. I arose listening to Blink 182 which I made me laugh only because I heard Mark's silly voice screaming and making some dirty, immature, joke. I didn't know I could wake up so quickly and be so happy doing it. Cool.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Fuck this shit. I just fucking went on an entire rant about marriage because the whole fucking god damn thing has been bothering me lately and somehow, SOME MOTHER FUCKING HOW it just deleted.

And auto save did a "save now" right after I deleted it. So my draft version did not include my fucking god damn fucking shit.

Fuck.

I am starting to think I cannot post anything meaningful on this thing as much as I would like to. Technology just won't let it happen.

Overall idea:

The concept of marriage has been completely ruined because of our inability to recognize that financial and material wealth is not as important as being satisfied and fulfilled with emotionally sharing yourself with another. We have lost our ability to ever be happy with what we have because we have been taught that there is always something better out there for us. We are too selfish to devote our life to the life of another and have the set idea that as an individual we are more important and powerful than when bonded together. Having to scramble for time, sex, and money has ruined us all. I am very afraid that my standpoint on marriage is extremely skewed because of numerous reasons and I am also very concerned that I will never be satisfied. I will always be searching for that 'something better'.

It was so much more in depth than that. I am sorry fellow bloggers I just do not have the energy to type it all out again. If you really want to know, gimme a call.

The sun is coming up. I need to go back to bed.

Good. Bye.